I don’t want to say good bye ever again.
To turn a corner and not be able to see you
To reach you
In case the unthinkable happens
In case this world tries to hurt you, to take you…
I don’t want to not be there
To throw myself in front of that harm
To use my flesh and bones to shield you from the dangers of this world
That every day seems to grow more dangerous
More frightening
More uncertain…
I can’t imagine why anyone would ever want to hurt you little one
Yet it happens far too often
To ignore
To hope
To believe it couldn’t happen to you
I would scorch the flesh from my bones before I let you come to harm
And that is why I never want to walk away
That my heart clinches every time a door closes
And you are on the other side
For then I open the door to your room
And imagine knowing you’re never coming back to it
And the fracturing, burning, unfathomable emptiness opens up inside me
I fall to my knees, cradling your stuffed bear
And imagine that terror and pain
And the guilt that I wasn’t there…
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