Locked Doors

I'm in this endless hallway

No matter which way I turn

I find only locked doors... oh whoa...

Is me. Is this me?

I hear the party on the other side

Under the door I see the light

But they won't let me inside

And I'm losing my will to fight

The lines on the walls are bleeding

The colors go drab

Melting into the floor

I can't, find what I'm needing

I want it so bad

But I just can't open the door....

I can't open the door...

I can't open the door....

I can't open the door...

I've pounded away

Every night and day

But these hinges won't give way

The why's they won't even say

And I can't open the door....

I can't open the door....

I can't open this door...

I'm afraid to try anymore...

So I go back down these halls

See all these photos I hate

Of when I try to motivate

Myself

Thinking one day I'd escape

But I can't breathe and I think it's too late

And I break down..

Shuddering

I break down

Stuttering

And I look down

I grab hold

Of the handle

The hammer

The tool I need

To get to where I could not before

And I break down

Swinging

I break down

Believing

I break down

Still heaving

I break down

Conceiving

That...

If a door won't open

All on its own

The only way out

Is to make my own.

Dying Horizon

I could have run with you forever

Look in your angry eyes and see

That you could hate the entire world

But still somehow take the time to love me

Your eyes could set the world on fire

Your laugh could light up the room

Your walk could turn every head

Your thoughts always spelled your doom

In your presence, I've never been higher

Free and wild, we hit the streets and didn't care

Life was booze and drugs and leaping through fire

Youth was a long game of truth or dare

Your eyes taking in the fading horizon

The wind whipping through you hair

Those days were numbered, we couldn't keep on

Living like we'd still be there

I would have run with you forever

Hold your searching gaze and see

That the entire world had failed you

And what you were waiting for was me...

I Miss You Robin

I miss you Robin

And the million smiles that you gave us

How you amazed and entertained us

All the scenes you made us care

For the laughter that we shared

Because of you.

My heart hurts without you Robin

All the tales you helped tell us

Your magic cast a spell as

We learned something of ourselves

Because of you

It’s not the same without you Robin

Your humor that infected

Or somber moments reflected

In your jokes and in your smile

With your passion or your style

And you’re still with us while

Your performances we’ve collected

You gave us so much more than we expected

And we still feel so connected

Because of you

Satisfied

Smile while the towers fall
Never see a single cause at all
Walls come down all around you
Toast to the wilting of the young
Withering of friendships, say adieu
This mudslide's just begun

Never let the sign posts offend your eyes
Of everyone that needs you
Screaming for you to recognize
While you simply do what pleased you

Surround yourself with assenting voices
Ignore the results of all your choices
And just rationalize, drink yourself into a stupor
Never see what they can't depend upon you for

Drinking Poison

You take the poison in you
But don't eliminate the source
It doesn't let you help them
Just elongates the course

I see the ticks now digging deeper
Standing under your umbrella, to leave you in the rain
Accountability or improvement, they seek neither
While the blackness spreads within your veins

Happy to extend their curse to you
The ones you wish to save
But they won't stay behind to nurse you
Or even lay you in your grave

Pay the Piper

I watch horrified
As you slide the stiletto in your eye
Slit your own throat
Just for attention
Pour it into the moat
That's filled with our apprehension

Drink deep as the life blood slips away
And every waning day
You push the world away

What does it matter really?
As long as you think you're right?
No one can live your life
Not your children or your wife

As long as you're appeased
Do whatever that you please
Drink deep of this disease
And wonder why you're dying

Make the same mistakes
Time and time again
Alienate your friends
And ignore the children crying

Choose the ones to use you
While the others that will lose you
Wouldn't join the downward spiral
It's like they never cared at all
Those that walked away
From the piper that you pay

Are You Watching

Paint the walls with cheap graffiti
No need to put forth effort or even really try
Tell me that I'm pretty
So I can perpetrate the lie

Listen while I'm offended, by every little thing
Cuz being so contrary makes me interesting
No need to give back or listen
My gift to you is existing

Don't give a damn for your opinion
So you better listen close to mine
Rosin up the pity violin
Drag my nails across it while I whine

World take notice how I suffer
In my auto-bio-tragedy
Watch how strong I am, overcoming nothing
Just don't look at me

Performance

Slit your wrists upon the stage
So the world can watch you bleed
Be sure to stage the lights just right
So everyone can see

All around you, supporting actors
To your self made tragedy
If you life's become too simple
Invent some suffering

Arrange your position carefully
Self made victims are all the rage
Pretend the entire world is against you
And never act your age

Never accept fault
Always pass the blame
And grow smaller as the world moves on
While you remain the same