What are you looking for?

Life is confusing

I feel lost in it sometimes

Waking from a dream

Not understanding where I rise

But you made all the sense to me

From when I grew to know

That you who were my wife to be

Would have so much to show

And forgetful though I was

As I wandered through this life

You'd ask what I was looking for

As I poked around inside

The contents of our cupboards

Or the topics in my head

Spectres chasing throughout the day

Or thoughts while I lay awake in bed

You were always there to remind me

Or at the least to keep me sane

Helping me stay to a single path

Against the wilderness inside my brain

The steps turned into dancing

The dancing went on for miles

Whether paying bills or romancing

Our faces wrinkled with our smiles

For I had you and you had me

And every time we'd head for the door

You'd see my mind go wandering

And ask what I was looking for

Then this perplexing world took you from me

As usual I did not understand why

Why there's so much involved in burying a spouse

Or why the world let me see you die

You were the heart and soul of this home

You made this house into a fortress of our love

And I get lost sometimes within these walls

And forget what I was thinking of

Misty eyed I stare into the window

Met with my reflection while I stare outside

Being met with both the echoes

From which I wish to run and hide

I still think I hear you on occasion

While gathering my notes from off the floor

As I get lost now and again

I hear your echo asking what I'm looking for

I feel your spirit in this house

Even as your touch ebbs and wanes with time

For what made this place a home now gone

And now it's just a resting place of mine

I'm very glad that you've found rest

As I ready to go outside this door

But I'd give the next breath from my chest

To hear you ask me what I'm looking for