Borealis

You take away my breath at night
Sharing time in that lonely light
Two of a kind though we're different suits
You fell into me and I into you
Nothing much we both could do
Wishing we'd had the chance to see it through...

I'm staring at these Northern lights
As I lay awake at night
The stars are falling
I hear you calling
Baby...
Maybe...
We'll win this fight

A message, a call, a come on over
A laugh, a cry, a leaning shoulder
We're lovers and friends
We share and we send
Such pieces of us and we will til the end.

But right now the night gets cold
The sky grows dim cuz you aren't here to hold...

It was all drawn up wrong though it felt so right
But Magic happens at the most random times
Arm in arm and eye to eye
The rest of the world just blurs right by

But the sun will rise as your lights fade away
As I open my eyes to a brand new day
Such moments fleeting
But our hearts still beating
When our hands intertwine, I know we're okay

Clock Repairman

We never know all the lives we may touch
All the ripples that we may cause
Hearts that would break if we were broken
Difference we would see if we took pause
Stepped outside ourselves for just a moment
See the intricate web which we belong
All the 'I love you's never spoken
Or saying how we've felt all along

If your clock is ever breaking
Hold me close so I can feel you ticking
If some part of you is endless aching
Sit with me, I won't be picking
At your problems or their causes
Decisions that may have lead you here
I just don't want you counted amongst the losses
I'll stay as long as you'll keep me near

If the other side becomes your longing
Hold my hand so you don't fall
I don't want to see you hurting
But I won't let go til we gave our all

Depression

Wake up sick again

Tired and aching from the inside out

Eyes and heart heavy

My head space clouded with doubt

Spend so much time trying

Just to reason out

Why on the inside I’m dying

From pain I can’t seem to live without

A chain reaction I don’t understand

That clenches in my chest

Pulls tight to my shaking hands

Till I cannot draw breath

Ribs tighten beneath these chains

Drug down to the ocean floor

Despite all my gains

I know I’ve been here before

I pull against the confines

That strangle, I’m slowly suffocating

Sometimes I just can’t describe

The feel of constantly aching

And I’m not looking for sympathy

Just an end to this pain

I’m tired of hurting. Burning.

Deep in my empathy

Is why I try time and again

To keep others from hurting.

Because I know how deep you might suffer

So I chase your demons away

Because it gives me a moment to forget my own.

For that moment you are my buffer

That let’s me pretend that I’m okay

Because the world does need to hear me suffer today.

But when the mask finally cracks

And I can no longer stand

When I cry in your arms is when I feel like home.

This parasite lives inside me

Tried so many times to cut it loose

Every laugh and smile is a moment of freedom

From the shackles this demon has woven

Through every fiber of my being.

And when those barbs constrict in my chest

Tears fall forth, because I can no longer hold back

So when you ask why I’m sad

I say I don’t know.

But I’m not sad.

I’m depressed.

And this is the difference.

Succubus

There's an enchantment stirring, deep in her eyes

A building yearning we both realize

Shadows caress her, cold and alone

Reaching for solace til skin breaks bone

Edges illumine, leaving focus for such

I've learned enough to fall madly

Though I haven't learned much

Sirens' distant calling

I hear naught but her voice

Forward I'm falling

But not by my choice

In longing I stumble

In passion embraced

Broken and humble

Sweet coppery taste

Her claws rake my skin

Teeth drag cross my flesh

I've forsaken Heaven

Seduced by sweet Death

Drops of crimson fall onto the floor

I look up in horror. I've been here before

Her finger, my lips

Sealed silent by breath

Requesting my soul

Offered freely in death

Edges now blurring

She licks blood from her hand

World now swirling

I soon understand

I'm now fated to fade

My desire, her power

Sweet damsel charade

In her luring dark tower

Sated she smiles

Whilst my vision goes black

I've succumbed to her wiles

And there's no going back

Pendulum Echo

I whisper through the swinging pendulums

Hoping you'll hear me on the other side

Thoughts about my day, confessions of love

Even if you can't hear them, if you're still alive

These notes in a bottle echo off these distant walls

Recollection of shadows, and the pain they have caused

Of all I am guilty, you still smile at me

As I lay here wilting, victim of my own disease

I sing to the silence that wraps all around

My essence, defiance, to the laws that abound

Of goodness and justice, in the end there's just me

Of the life that I'm living versus who I should be

I cradled your fingers through bars colder than ice

My tears stain your skin, heart constricts in the vice

Of all my remorse and the loss leading here

Loneliness, doubt, confusion and fear

My shoulders they shudder as I think of you gone

Even with you beside me, I know it won't be long

Til the seasons shift wind blows you so much further afar

I'd hold you til the end if I could reach through these bars

Holding me fast, pin my chest to the ground

Each breath growing harsher, dwindling sound

The increasing pain as my eyes well with despair

I cry out your name, hoping you hear me somewhere

If I Had Known

If I had known this was the last time I'd hold you
Would I have ever let you go?
So much more I'd wanted to show you.
So much more you'll never know.

If I had known it was the last time I'd sleep next to you
Would I have ever opened up my eyes?
Reach toward the emptiness beside me.
Sighing as I realize.

That nothing's certain but this moment
And we'll never get back today
For all that I've been withholding
I'm going to have to find a way
To not take the sunrise for granted
For it might rise again without you there
And tho life gets so demanding
I need to remind you that I care

If I had known this was the last time I'd see you
How hard would I fight not to blink?
If I'd have known how close we were to through
Could I have changed what you might think?

Nothing's certain but this moment
And we'll never get back today
For all that I've been withholding
I'm going to have to find a way
To not take the sunrise for granted
For it might rise again without you there
And tho life gets so demanding
I need to remind you that I care


But it's what I do and what I've done
To connect to or love some one
And as these moments slip through time
What did I do to make each one mine?