Company Tonight

There’s this moment when I see you

When my chest constricts and I’m short of breath

My mouth goes dry and I don’t know what to say

My eyes water and I want to scream.

I want to scream because I hurt

I want to scream it isn’t fair

I want to scream because I miss you

I want to scream cuz I still care

I look in your eyes, and I see home no longer mine

I look at your neck and think of my fingers on your spine

I look at your hands, and think of how we’re ‘just friends’

I look at your shoulders and think that I’ll never hold you again

I just want to hate you

And have all of this go away

Alone in the night

And not with you in the day

My solace and comfort

Now so far away

I’ve tried so hard to sort

But there’s nothing left to say

Words can’t change, and time can’t heal

It feels so strange, it can’t be real

Like the world ended yesterday

And I’ve been left to wander

Like Fate took you away

And all I can do is ponder

Wondering why, is this my

Cadence to play again?

This dancing back and forth

Is driving me insane

The chords change out

And dissonant fade

I wonder if this was all a charade

Did you care enough to try

Did you want to believe?

Or was it all a lie?

And I fell for the deceive.

Questions with no answers.

Wrongs with no rights in sight.

And the drumming of my fingers

And the memories that linger

To keep me company tonight.

Pagliacci

Radio static receding

The announcement made that magic is gone

Something constricts, our hearts bleeding

All of us wondering what went so wrong

What will our world be like tomorrow?

Will our tears remind us why we live?

Relive the joy of your memory in our sorrow

And measure the impact by how much you give

Silence of dissipating laughter

Pinching pain inside our chest

Everything that did or didn’t matter

Set aside when we’re laid to rest

Oh Captain, my Captain

So oft our solace and inspiration

You were my Captain

Helped me push forward in contemplation

Of why we strive for these professions we take

Push forward while told our dreams will never come true

It was your belief that made you great

And as that brilliance touched us, we believed we could too

That light will continue to burn in our hearts

And lift our souls farther than where we are

Will grow in brilliance as we try, fail, repeat

Learn and grow mighty with each challenge we meet

Thank you, my Captain

Rest now, after your battle hard fought

I salute you dear friend

May your ship take you to the peace you have sought