Cascade

Your fingers interlaced with mine
The earliest statement that we were together
That you were mine and I was yours

As days and nights cascaded through our fingers
Like my hands through your hair
Like your touch through my soul

To peer into your eyes and know what love looked like
To reach like Icarus toward Heaven
And have you embrace me in the clouds

To hold the passion that we yearn for in our dreams
And are left haunted in the embers of its aftermath

As the wind blows the ashes past my feet
I stare down. I dare not look at Heaven
For I might fall again
And my tears might blind me

Shaking like my soul is splitting
And I've naught to dream of but what used to be
Wrapped about with my burnt and broken wings
Against the cold.

As Morning Star in my contemplation.
Endless, these moments where I can't breathe
Holding the Earth so I don't fall away
Remembering all you were to me.

Her Fragile Beauty

There is despair in her love, that gives her such beauty

Like a fallen angel

Who screams and sings

As tears fall down

Lamenting a heaven that is so far away

When passion meets despair

As my love meets her eyes

I am overwhelmed by the beauty of the moment

The intensity of her gaze

Forever grasped by that temporary

Our souls laid bare amidst blood and satin

Locked with her eyes I would

Let all else fade away

And exist in this eternal

Arm in arm, hand in hand

Her, me, always

Within Reach of Heaven

She is all I want

She is all I see

When I close my eyes in memory

I feel like I can't breathe

Between the here and now

And the winds of destiny

Is so close and yet somehow

It simply wasn't meant to be

In the wings of heaven

I reach for you and you touch me

Amidst clouds and smoke

We act out our symphony

If I had faith back then

Would I be alone again

Or would our souls intertwine...

Regret is such a private hell

Am I the angel that fell

Or do I love a lie?

This shaking sickness that flows through me

Takes me to the floor through buckled knees

Cough through the sobs, cry til I choke

I still can't believe

That any loving God could take you away from me

Together at the altar, alone at your grave

And I count the days til I see you again

Like moments loaded into the pistol

Shot my life away

Every drunk and broken dream

Dissipates with the light of day

And you're gone again

As the cold sets in

I cling only to the memories

Used To Sparkle

I remember when you're pretty eyes

Used to sparkle just for me

But that sparkle and it's magic

Now are just a memory

So much weathered before our joining

Seemed it might be destiny

But even stars one day grow cold

And I don't believe in 'meant to be'

These fleeting memories

Of the love you bear for me

Of all our harmony

Dying in this tragedy

If we could start again

Instead of giving in

If we could try to make it

Take it, break it, don't mistake it

It was never you and I

It was us and we shined bright

Others noticed all around us

Envious or glad they found us

And in our hand to hand

We would make our ever stand

In this life we'd made

Never have to be afraid

Cuz you had me

And I had you

And we would see

Each other through

And hold the shaking

Falling, breaking

Tears that someday come

And once I had realized

You and I found paradise

In each other's eyes and arms

And all our fun

And from sweet serenity

We find this, the tragedy

The bond we make

That cannot break

Please God tell me

There's been some mistake

In our sweet surrender

Some where we lost our forever

And as we fade away

I'll be thinking of the day

You on my door

Not wanting to turn away

Of both us wanting more

Me not knowing what to say

Because I feared this day would come

And all my hope be burned to dust

Wishing I could just be numb

The moment I had learned to trust

And as the symphony

Draws right to the bitter end

Left with misery

Not knowing which way to send

These thoughts that burn my mind alive

What I wouldn't sacrifice

To change your mind and change our lives

And let our love survive

I'm left choking on the pain

The same hard lesson once again

I can't change the past or destiny

So what's there left for me?

Spinning fast

No place to turn

Will this last

Forever yearn

A shadow right outside the grave

A soul nobody wants to save

I'm not ready for the fall

I'd have given you my all

But in the end it's not my call

And I don't have the where withal

To do this slow dance anymore

Been here too many times before

And whatever I have left to learn

I'm not ready to feel that burn

So let me go and let me rest

And please know I did my best

Keep my love next to your chest

Hate to think I lost this quest

Your beautiful eyes used to sparkle just for me

Beaming like the morning dawn

Our touch and kiss, such serenity

And somewhere that melody still lingers on

No Where, Nothing

 

In the dead of the night

When my chest aches

And my heart screams

And it's your name that reverberates

Upon the chambers of my soul

I'm lost in the endless prison of nowhere

Nothing.

I can't go on panting, breathing

The pain inside me is surging, seething

I'm left with nothing right now

You were my everything

Where do I turn

When everything seems lost

The edges blur to grey

Like the burning in my eyes

I've no sense of time

Except it's taking way too long

To end. 

Somewhere amidst the bitter ash

The fragrance of what used to be

The soot crumbles through my fingers

The same fingers your love ran through.

Empty hands blackened, charred and shaking

And I'm mistaking the images I think I see

Where all is right again

And you returned to me

The smile upon your face means what it used to be

The sun shines a bit brighter

The colors taste returns

And I hold you so tightly

My treasure, my forever

I blink once, then twice

And sit upright

And curse myself for waking

For that moment's gone

And so are you

As the cold settles in once more

The waking breeze carrying your name

and those familiar scents of memory

Midnight Scream:

I want to scream til my insides bleed

So the poison inside can just kill me

I'm going to set this broken bridge on fire

And walk through as it burns

And listen to the screams of liars

The lessons they will never learn

I'm haunted by my own mistakes

But won't waste time on the untrue

You bent my good will til it breaks

So this time the joke's on you

With What I Know Now

With what I know now

I can change tomorrow

What I know now

I can beat the setting sun

And it's true I couldn't save with you

But the next time that I meet some one

I can change myself with what I know now

Can't seem to fit the pieces of this puzzle back together

I hope that this pain eases our past that I remember

I wish I could go back in time

And never lose what made you mine

And if I could have known

These chance that I've blown

I never would have let yesterday

Have the chance to get away

With what I know now

I can change tomorrow

What I know now

I can beat the setting sun

And it's true I couldn't save with you

But the next time that I meet some one

I can change myself with what I know now