Within Reach of Heaven

She is all I want

She is all I see

When I close my eyes in memory

I feel like I can't breathe

Between the here and now

And the winds of destiny

Is so close and yet somehow

It simply wasn't meant to be

In the wings of heaven

I reach for you and you touch me

Amidst clouds and smoke

We act out our symphony

If I had faith back then

Would I be alone again

Or would our souls intertwine...

Regret is such a private hell

Am I the angel that fell

Or do I love a lie?

This shaking sickness that flows through me

Takes me to the floor through buckled knees

Cough through the sobs, cry til I choke

I still can't believe

That any loving God could take you away from me

Together at the altar, alone at your grave

And I count the days til I see you again

Like moments loaded into the pistol

Shot my life away

Every drunk and broken dream

Dissipates with the light of day

And you're gone again

As the cold sets in

I cling only to the memories

Tatters

Hearts don't break, we don't hear the shatter

The rends happen silently

And not all at once

The tears appear slowly

Burnt and scraped

With every careless word

,Harsh moment

,Forgotten plan

If it was broken it would stop working

And the pain would cease

But it pumps hot regret through cooling veins

Steam creating condensation

Tear ducts releasing pressure

Unseen

The cloth within, worn and torn

These tattered remnants writhe with pain

When winds of memory twist their fabric

And all those echoes come back to life

But there is life in pain

And wisdom in remembering

Strength in growing

And beauty in learning

Though the shadows of the past still sting and haunt

Experience gained is a treasure stored

Each moment forward where knowledge makes use

There may seem no future

In this coiling darkness

But the strength within us builds

For each wound borne

Each pain recalled

New joys are that much sweeter