Where Now, The Martyr

In shadows lurk such lonely martyrs

Hungry for their call to die

Left to fate, but trying harder

Ringing questions, asking why

Lost to destiny in chanting

As we wander, so we fall

In such ecstasy left panting

Tried to alter, lost it all

Wanted everything, and counting

Left with hollow souls to self

The mound of failures now quite mounting

Brings the brink of mental health

If the answers all came easily

You wouldn't want too much from me

If I could tell you so clearly

If I could set my mind at ease

But closing faster, breaking harder

See my wounds, I am no martyr

I've earned my sentence

And all repentence

Left with yearning

But now I'm learning

Left in darkness, felt so hollow

And my remark this, I am too shallow

I can not see past my own hand

Too tired to see, to weak to stand

Why must I ever choose

Between brimstone and fire

So much to lose

Always the liar

Tear my soul , keep tasting blood

Grit my teeth, hold back the flood

Close my eyes, where am I now?
Will I make it through some how?

There It Is

Looking at a rose colored sunset

Warmth on your face and your start to forget

What it was that first made you cry

With a smile on your face and tear in your eye

When there's too much falling all around you

Look at the beauty that surrounds you

Sometimes life it will confound you

But take a deep breath and there it is

All the answers to all our questions

In the moments and connections

Moments tender with affection

Lead us in the right direction

And I hope to see you there

There's still those who care

And you aren't alone anywhere

Just close your eyes and there it is